Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Surviving Technical Difficulties

So how does a girl manage a household whilst her husband is away singing and dancing at tech week and a weekend long performance of a musical?

SHE EATS. She eats a LOT.

And then Monday morning, and she steps on the scale for the first time in 5 days and her heart sinks.

181.

3 pounds MORE than when she started this contest.

Now, I could make all kinds of legitimate excuses. I was making quick and easy unhealthy meals, I was eating late (like after 11pm) when her hubby got home, "TOM" was close to arriving and I was a bottomless pit that was retaining back the Red Sea....

But I am not going to excuse my behavior. I was hungry. And I ate things that I shouldn't have. End of discussion.

So how does a person feel when she knowingly accepts that this setback is her own dang fault?

1. Guilty- much like on my own blog, I know that people are watching me, and feel that twinge of guilt that I have let people down. Totally fine. Nothing wrong with a little guilt. As long as I don't let it overtake my emotions and tell me I am going to feel.

2. Frustrated- this is the most natural human emotion. It is even more natural when I realize that this setback could have been avoided if I had simply behaved like a rational human on a diet and had even an ounce of will power and self discipline. (Which I obviously do not- enough said)

3. I FEEL REAL- this may surprise you, but I enjoy feeling normal. So very often I feel like a total oddball. It's nice to know that this is something all of you experience too! We move forward, take a step back, then move forward again. It's the dance of the dieter, and it does not happen to failures. It happens to EVERYONE.


I don't know if these words will help anyone out there, but there is nothing wrong with setbacks. Setbacks give us the opportunity to empower ourselves with resolve- determination- focus.

It also shows us where our weaknesses are. And so you don't feel alone, here are my weaknesses:
1. PASTA
2. Chocolate
3. Portion Control
4. Late night eating
5. Not eating every 3 hours like I am supposed to.

Does anyone out there share these weaknesses? What do you guys struggle with?

6 comments:

  1. Definitely sugar is a weakness for me. I just love sweets and want them all the time. If I get on a roll and cut it out for a while, like a week I always feel better but I continue to go back to that abusive boyfriend, sugar!! I wish I hated the taste of it but I don't.

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  2. Can I just say I love you? You are so refreshingly real. I don't feel like "crap I gained a pound this week, that means I'm a failure" because you, who has lost so much weight already, have weeks like me. Last week wasn't the greatest for me, but that is ok. I feel like my real weaknesses are when I go out to eat with friends. So thank you Charlie, for being fantastic and wonderful and not losing weight (there, I said it). Because you will keep pushing and working out and will lose weight, just like the rest of us.

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  3. I love you, too. You're going to be just fine.

    My weaknesses?

    1. Tortilla chips and salsa
    2. Pasta in any shape
    3. Chocolate
    4. Peanut Butter Cookies
    5. Shortbread Cookies
    6. Oatmeal Cookies
    7. Okay, cookies of any kind.


    For now, I just don't go there. I don't eat them, I don't buy them, I don't prepare them for my family, and EVERYONE is whining about it. Why? Because I'm still too new in my start-over and I'll loose all sorts of control. Darling Hubby bought tortilla chips Saturday and put them in the pantry. I totally lost it, smashed them into teeny bits and threw the whole lot in the compost bin. *sigh* He thinks I've flipped. Huh. The racoons had a feast out there.

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  4. Girl, you know I love you! Every nutty, zaney, REAL inch of you!

    I struggle with so much, I don't know if there's space on here.lol

    1. Chips
    2. Chocolate
    3. CHEEZ-Its!!!!!(They had them on sale at WalMart and I bought a box! Agh!)
    4. Pasta
    5. Salad Dressing (I know that might sound funny, but I love ALOT of it on my salad.)

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  5. I just remembered my other absolute downfall.

    PIZZA.

    Love it. I absolutely cannot pass it up. EV-UH.

    Pizza has also been banned from this kitchen. If the offspring want it, then my Darling can take then all out for pizza while I enjoy an evening of quiet.

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  6. Charlie, you are doing such a great job. If it weren't for our failures, we wouldn't be able to celebrate our successes. And you've had a lot of those! :)

    As for my weaknesses...well, how long of a comment can I leave? :)

    1. Oreos.
    2. Doritos.
    3. Cheetohs.
    4. Mexican Coca-Cola.
    5. Any dessert I make.

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